We
were driving along the road from Treguier to Kuranda. We passed at a smart
trot between the hedges topping an earth wall on each side of the road; then at
the foot of the steep ascent before Ploumar the horse dropped into a walk, and
the driver jumped down heavily from the box. He flicked his whip and climbed
the incline, stepping clumsily uphill by the side of the carriage, one hand on
the footboard, his eyes on the ground. After a while, he lifted his head,
pointed up the road with the end of the whip, and said--
"The
idiot!"
The sun was shining violently upon the undulating surface of the land. The rises
were topped by clumps of meager trees, with their branches showing high on the
sky as if they had been perched upon stilts. The small fields, cut up by hedges
and stone walls that zig-zagged over the slopes, lay in rectangular patches of
vivid greens and yellows, resembling the unskilful daubs of a naive picture.
And the landscape was divided in two by the white streak of a road stretching
in long loops far away, like a river of dust crawling out of the hills on its
way to the sea.
"Here
he is," said the driver, again.
In
the long grass bordering the road a face glided past the carriage at the level
of the wheels as we drove slowly by. The imbecile face was red, and the bullet
head with close-cropped hair seemed to lie alone, its chin in the dust. The
body was lost in the bushes growing thick along the bottom of the deep ditch.
It
was a boy's face. He might have been sixteen, judging from the size--perhaps
less, perhaps more. Such creatures are forgotten by time, and live untouched by
years till death gathers them up into its compassionate bosom; the faithful death
that never forgets in the press of work the most insignificant of its children.
"Ah!
there's another," said the man, with a certain satisfaction in his tone,
as if he had caught sight of something expected.
There
was another. That one stood nearly in the middle of the road in the blaze of
sunshine at the end of his own short shadow. And he stood with hands pushed
into the opposite sleeves of his long coat, his head sunk between the
shoulders, all hunched up in the flood of heat. From a distance, he had the
aspect of one suffering from the intense cold.
"Those
are twins," explained the driver.
The
idiot shuffled two paces out of the way and looked at us over his shoulder when
we brushed past him. The glance was unseeing and staring, a fascinated glance;
but he did not turn to look after us. Probably the image passed before the eyes
without leaving any trace on the misshapen brain of the creature. When we had
topped the ascent I looked over the hood. He stood in the road just where we
had left him.
The driver clambered into his seat, clicked his tongue, and we went downhill. The brake squeaked horribly from time to time. At the foot, he eased off the noisy
mechanism and said, turning half round on his box--
"We
shall see some more of them by-and-by."
"More
idiots? How many of them are there, then?" I asked.
"There's
four of them--children of a farmer near Ploumar here. . . . The parents are
dead now," he added, after a while. "The grandmother lives on the
farm. In the daytime, they knock about on this road, and they come home at dusk
along with the cattle. . . . It's a good farm."
We
saw the other two: a boy and a girl, as the driver said. They were dressed
exactly alike, in shapeless garments with petticoat-like skirts. The imperfect
thing that lived within them moved those beings to howl at us from the top of
the bank, where they sprawled amongst the tough stalks of furze. Their cropped
black heads stuck out from the bright yellow wall of countless small blossoms.
The faces were purple with the strain of yelling; the voices sounded blank and
cracked like a mechanical imitation of old people's voices, and suddenly ceased
when we turned into a lane.
I saw them
many times in my wandering about the country. They lived on that road, drifting
along its length here and there, according to the inexplicable impulses of
their monstrous darkness. They were an offense to the sunshine, a reproach to
empty heaven, a blight on the concentrated and purposeful vigor of the wild
landscape. In time the story of their parents shaped itself before me out of
the listless answers to my questions, out of the indifferent words heard in
wayside inns or on the very road those idiots haunted. Some of it was told by
an emaciated and skeptical old fellow with a tremendous whip, while we trudged
together over the sands by the side of a two-wheeled cart loaded with dripping
seaweed. Then at other times other people confirmed and completed the story:
till it stood at last before me, a tale formidable and simple, as they always
are, those disclosures of obscure trials endured by ignorant hearts.
When
he returned from his military service Jean-Pierre Bacadou found the old people
very much aged. He remarked with pain that the work of the farm was not
satisfactorily done. The father had not the energy of the old days. The hands did
not feel over them the eye of the master. Jean-Pierre noted with sorrow that
the heap of manure in the courtyard before the only entrance to the house was
not so large as it should have been. The fences were out of repair, and the cattle
suffered from neglect. At home, the mother was practically bedridden, and the
girls chattered loudly in the big kitchen, unrebuked, from morning to night. He
said to himself: "We must change all this." He talked the matter over
with his father one evening when the rays of the setting sun entering the yard
between the outhouses ruled the heavy shadows with luminous streaks. Over the
manure, heap floated a mist, opal-tinted and odorous, and the marauding hens
would stop in their scratching to examine with a sudden glance of their round
eye the two men, both lean and tall, talking in hoarse tones. The old man, all
twisted with rheumatism and bowed with years of work, the younger bony and
straight, spoke without gestures in the indifferent manner of peasants, grave
and slow. But before the sun had set the father had submitted to the sensible
arguments of the son. "It is not for me that I am speaking," insisted
Jean-Pierre. "It is for the land. It's a pity to see it badly used. I am
not impatient for myself." The old fellow nodded over his stick. "I
dare say; I dare say," he muttered. "You may be right. Do what you
like. It's the mother that will be pleased."
The
mother was pleased with her daughter-in-law. Jean-Pierre brought the
two-wheeled spring-cart with a rush into the yard. The gray horse galloped
clumsily, and the bride and bridegroom, sitting side by side, were jerked
backward and forwards by the up and down motion of the shafts, in a manner
regular and brusque. On the road, the distanced wedding guests straggled in
pairs and groups. The men advanced with heavy steps, swinging their idle arms.
They were clad in town clothes; jackets cut with clumsy smartness, hard black
hats, immense boots, polished highly. Their women all in simple black, with
white caps and shawls of faded tints folded triangularly on the back, strolled
lightly by their side. In front, the violin sang a strident tune, and the biniou
snored and hummed, while the player capered solemnly, lifting high his heavy
clogs. The somber procession drifted in and out of the narrow lanes, through
sunshine and through the shade, between fields and hedgerows, scaring the little
birds that darted away in troops right and left. In the yard of Bacadou's farm, the dark ribbon wound itself up into a mass of men and women pushing at the
door with cries and greetings. The wedding dinner was remembered for months. It
was a splendid feast in the orchard. Farmers of considerable means and
excellent repute were to be found sleeping in ditches, all along the road to Treguier,
even as late as the afternoon of the next day. All the countryside participated
in the happiness of Jean-Pierre. He remained sober, and, together with his
quiet wife, kept out of the way, letting father and mother reap their due of
honor and thanks. But the next day he took hold strongly, and the old folks
felt a shadow--a precursor of the grave--fall upon them finally. The world is to
the young.
When
the twins were born there was plenty of room in the house, for the mother of
Jean-Pierre had gone away to dwell under a heavy stone in the cemetery of
Plummer. On that day, for the first time since his son's marriage, the elder
Bacau, neglected by the cackling lot of strange women who thronged the
kitchen, left in the morning his seat under the mantel of the fireplace, and
went into the empty cow-house, shaking his white locks dismally. Grandsons were
all very well, but he wanted his soup at midday. When shown the babies, he
stared at them with a fixed gaze, and muttered something like: "It's too much."
Whether he meant too much happiness, or simply commented upon the number of his
descendants, it is impossible to say. He looked offended --as far as his old
wooden face could express anything; and for days afterward could be seen,
almost any time of the day, sitting at the gate, with his nose over his knees,
a pipe between his gums, and gathered up into a kind of raging concentrated
sulkiness. Once he spoke to his son, alluding to the newcomers with a groan:
"They will quarrel over the land." "Don't bother about that,
father," answered Jean-Pierre, stolidly, and passed, bent double, towing a
recalcitrant cow over his shoulder.
He
was happy, and so was Susan, his wife. It was not an ethereal joy welcoming new
souls to struggle, perchance to victory. In fourteen years both boys would be a
help; and, later on, Jean-Pierre pictured two big sons striding over the land
from patch to patch, a wringing tribute from the earth beloved and fruitful.
Susan was happy too, for she did not want to be spoken of as the unfortunate
woman, and now she had children no one could call her that. Both herself and
her husband had seen something of the larger world--he during the time of his
service; while she had spent a year or so in Paris with a Breton family; but
had been too home-sick to remain longer away from the hilly and green country,
set in a barren circle of rocks and sands, where she had been born. She thought
that one of the boys ought perhaps to be a priest but said nothing to her
husband, who was a republican, and hated the "crows," as he called
the ministers of religion. The christening was a splendid affair. All the
commune came to it, for the Bacadous were rich and influential, and, now and
then, did not mind the expense. The grandfather had a new coat.
Some
months afterward, one evening when the kitchen had been swept, and the door
locked, Jean-Pierre, looking at the cot, asked his wife: "What's the
matter with those children?" And, as if these words, spoken calmly, had
been the portent of misfortune, she answered with a loud wail that must have
been heard across the yard in the pig-sty; for the pigs (the Bacadous had the
finest pigs in the country) stirred and grunted complainingly in the night. The
husband went on grinding his bread and butter slowly, gazing at the wall, the
soup-plate smoking under his chin. He had returned late from the market, where
he had overheard (not for the first time) whispers behind his back. He revolved
the words in his mind as he drove back. "Simple! Both of them. . . . Never
any use! . . . Well! Maybe, maybe. One must-see. Would ask his wife."
This was her answer. He felt like a blow on his chest but said only: "Go,
draw me some cider. I am thirsty!"
She
went out moaning, an empty jug in her hand. Then he arose, took up the light,
and moved slowly towards the cradle. They slept. He looked at them sideways,
finished his mouthful there, went back heavily, and sat down before his plate.
When his wife returned he never looked up, but swallowed a couple of spoonfuls
noisily, and remarked, in a dull manner--
"When
they sleep they are like other people's children."
She
sat down suddenly on a stool nearby, and shook with a silent tempest of sobs,
unable to speak. He finished his meal and remained idly thrown back in his
chair, his eyes lost amongst the black rafters of the ceiling. Before him the
tallow candle flared red and straight, sending up a slender thread of smoke.
The light lay on the rough, sunburnt skin of his throat; the sunk cheeks were
like patches of darkness, and his aspect was mournfully stolid as if he had
ruminated with difficulty endless ideas. Then he said, deliberately--
"We
must see . . . consult people. Don't cry. . . . They won't all be like that...
. surely! We must sleep now."
After
the third child, also a boy, was born, Jean-Pierre went about his work with
tense hopefulness. His lips seemed more narrow, more tightly compressed than
before; as if for fear of letting the earth he tilled hear the voice of hope
that murmured within his breast. He watched the child, stepping up to the cot
with a heavy clang of sabots on the stone floor, and glanced in, along his
shoulder, with that indifference which is like a deformity of peasant humanity.
Like the earth they master and serve, those men, slow of eye and speech, do not
show the inner fire; so that, at last, it becomes a question with them as with
the earth, what there is in the core: heat, violence, a force mysterious and
terrible--or nothing but a clod, a mass fertile and inert, cold and unfeeling,
ready to bear a crop of plants that sustain life or give death.
The
mother watched with other eyes; listened with otherwise expectant ears. Under
the high hanging shelves supporting great sides of bacon overhead, her body was
busy by the great fireplace, attentive to the pot swinging on iron gallows,
scrubbing the long table where the field hands would sit down directly to their
evening meal. Her mind remained by the cradle, night and day on the watch, to
hope and suffer. That child, like the other two, never smiled, never stretched its
hands to her, never spoke; never had a glance of recognition for her in its big
black eyes, which could only stare fixedly at any glitter, but failed
hopelessly to follow the brilliance of a sun-ray slipping slowly along the
floor. When the men were at work she spent long days between her three idiot
children and the childish grandfather, who sat grim, angular, and immovable,
with his feet near the warm ashes of the fire. The feeble old fellow seemed to
suspect that there was something wrong with his grandsons. Only once, moved
either by affection or by the sense of proprieties, he attempted to nurse the
youngest. He took the boy up from the floor, clicked his tongue at him, and
essayed a shaky gallop of his bony knees. Then he looked closely with his misty
eyes at the child's face and deposited him down gently on the floor again. And
he sat, his lean shanks crossed, nodding at the steam escaping from the
cooking-pot with a gaze senile and worried.
Then
mute affliction dwelt in Bacadou's farmhouse, sharing the breath and the bread
of its inhabitants; and the priest of the Ploumar parish had great cause for
congratulation. He called upon the rich landowner, the Marquis de Chavannes, on
purpose to deliver himself with joyful unction of solemn platitudes about the
inscrutable ways of Providence. In the vast dimness of the curtained
drawing-room, the little man, resembling a black bolster, leaned towards a
couch, his hat on his knees, and gesticulated with a fat hand at the elongated,
gracefully-flowing lines of the clear Parisian toilette from which the
half-amused, half-bored marquise listened with gracious languor. He was
exulting and humble, proud, and awed. The impossible had come to pass.
Jean-Pierre Bacadou, the enraged republican farmer, had been to mass last
Sunday--had proposed to entertain the visiting priests at the next festival of
Plummer! It was a triumph for the Church and for the good cause. "I
thought I would come at once to tell Monsieur le Marquis. I know how anxious he
is for the welfare of our country," declared the priest, wiping his face.
He was asked to stay for dinner.
The
Chavannes returning that evening, after seeing their guest to the main gate of
the park, discussed the matter while they strolled in the moonlight, trailing
their long shadows up the straight avenue of chestnuts. The marquise, a
royalist, of course, had been mayor of the commune which includes Ploumar, the
scattered hamlets of the coast, and the stony islands that fringe the yellow
flatness of the sands. He had felt his position insecure, for there was a
strong republican element in that part of the country; but now the conversion
of Jean-Pierre made him safe. He was very pleased. "You have no idea how
influential those people are," he explained to his wife. "Now, I am
sure, the next communal election will go all right. I shall be re-
elected." "Your ambition is perfectly insatiable, Charles,"
exclaimed the marquise, gaily. "But, ma chere Amie," argued the
husband, seriously, "it's most important that the right man should be mayor
this year, because of the elections to the Chamber. If you think it amuses me.
. ."
Jean-Pierre
had surrendered to his wife's mother. Madame Leveille was a woman of business,
known and respected within a radius of at least fifteen miles. Thick-set and
stout, she was seen about the country, on foot or in an acquaintance's cart,
perpetually moving, in spite of her fifty-eight years, in steady pursuit of
business. She had houses in all the hamlets, she worked quarries of granite,
she freighted coasters with stone--even traded with the Channel Islands. She
was broad-cheeked, wide-eyed, persuasive in speech: carrying her point with the
placid and invincible obstinacy of an old woman who knows her own mind. She
very seldom slept for two nights together in the same house, and the wayside
inns were the best places to inquire in as to her whereabouts. She had either
passed, or was expected to pass there at six; or somebody, coming in, had seen
her in the morning, or expected to meet her that evening. After the inns that
command the roads, the churches were the buildings she frequented most. Men of
liberal opinions would induce small children to run into sacred edifices to see
whether Madame Leveille was there, and to tell her that so-and-so was in the
road waiting to speak to her about potatoes, or flour, or stones, or houses;
and she would curtail her devotions, come out blinking and crossing herself
into the sunshine; ready to discuss business matters in a calm, sensible way
across a table in the kitchen of the inn opposite. Latterly she had stayed for
a few days several times with her son-in-law, arguing against sorrow and
misfortune with a composed face and gentle tones. Jean-Pierre felt the
convictions imbibed in the regiment torn out of his breast--not by arguments
but by facts. Striding over his fields he thought it over. There were three of
them. Three! All alike! Why? Such things did not happen to everybody--to nobody
he ever heard of. One--might pass. But three! All three. Forever useless, to be
fed while he lived and . . . What would become of the land when he died? This
must be seen to. He would sacrifice his convictions. One day he told his wife--
"See
what your God will do for us. Pay for some masses."
Susan
embraced her man. He stood unbending, then turned on his heels and went out.
But afterward, when a black soutane darkened his doorway, he did not object;
even offered some cider himself to the priest. He listened to the talk meekly;
went to mass between the two women; accomplished what the priest called
"his religious duties" at Easter. That morning he felt like a man who
had sold his soul. In the afternoon he fought ferociously with an old friend
and neighbor who had remarked that the priests had the best of it and we're now
going to eat the priest-eater. He came home disheveled and bleeding, and
happening to catch sight of his children (they were kept generally out of the
way), cursed and swore incoherently, banging the table. Susan wept. Madame
Leveille sat serenely unmoved. She assured her daughter that "It will
pass;" and taking up her thick umbrella, departed in haste to see after a
schooner she was going to load with granite from her quarry.
A year or so
afterward, the girl was born. A girl. Jean-Pierre heard of it in the fields and was so upset by the news that he sat down on the boundary wall and remained
there till the evening, instead of going home as he was urged to do. A girl! He
felt half cheated. However, when he got home he was partly reconciled to his
fate. One could marry her to a good fellow--not to a good for nothing, but to a
fellow with some understanding and a good pair of arms. Besides, the next may
be a boy, he thought. Of course, they would be all right. His new credulity knew
of no doubt. The ill-luck was broken. He spoke cheerily to his wife. She was
also hopeful. Three priests came to that christening, and Madame Leveille was the godmother. The child turned out an idiot too.
Then
on market days Jean-Pierre was seen bargaining bitterly, quarrelsome and
greedy; then getting drunk with taciturn earnestness; then driving home in the
dusk at a rate fit for a wedding, but with a face gloomy enough for a funeral.
Sometimes he would insist on his wife coming with him; and they would drive in
the early morning, shaking side by side on the narrow seat above the helpless
pig, that, with tied legs, grunted a melancholy sigh at every rut. The morning
drives were silent; but in the evening, coming home, Jean-Pierre, tipsy, was
viciously muttering, and growled at the confounded woman who could not rear
children that were like anybody else's. Susan, holding on against the erratic
swayings of the cart, pretended not to hear. Once, as they were driving through
Plummer, some obscure and drunken impulse caused him to pull up sharply
opposite the church. The moon swam amongst light white clouds. The tombstones
gleamed pale under the fretted shadows of the trees in the churchyard. Even the
village dogs slept. Only the nightingales, awake, spun out the thrill of their
song above the silence of graves. Jean-Pierre said thickly to his wife--
"What
do you think is there?"
He
pointed his whip at the tower--in which the big dial of the clock appeared high
in the moonlight like a pallid face without eyes--and getting out carefully,
fell down at once by the wheel. He picked himself up and climbed one by one the
few steps to the iron gate of the churchyard. He put his face to the bars and
called out indistinctly--
"Hey
there! Come out!"
"Jean!
Return! Return!" entreated his wife in low tones.
He
took no notice, and seemed to wait there. The song of nightingales beat on all
sides against the high walls of the church and flowed back between stone
crosses and flat gray slabs, engraved with words of hope and sorrow.
"Hey!
Come out!" shouted Jean-Pierre, loudly.
The
nightingales ceased to sing.
"Nobody?"
went on Jean-Pierre. "Nobody there. A swindle of the crows. That's what
this is. Nobody anywhere. I despise it. Allez! Houp!"
He
shook the gate with all his strength, and the iron bars rattled with a
frightful clanging like a chain dragged over stone steps. A dog near by barked
hurriedly. Jean-Pierre staggered back, and after three successive dashes got
into his cart. Susan sat very quiet and still. He said to her with drunken
severity--
"See?
Nobody. I've been made a fool! Malheur! Somebody will pay for it. The next one
I see near the house I will lay my whip on . . . on the black spine . . . I
will. I don't want him in there . . . he only helps the carrion crows to rob
poor folk. I am a man. . . . We will see if I can't have children like anybody
else . . . now your mind. . . . They won't be all . . . all . . . we see. . .
."
She
burst out through the fingers that hid her face--
"Don't
say that, Jean; don't say that, my man!"
He
struck her a swinging blow on the head with the back of his hand and knocked
her into the bottom of the cart, where she crouched, thrown about lamentably by
every jolt. He drove furiously, standing up, brandishing his whip, shaking the
reins over the gray horse that galloped ponderously, making the heavy harness
leap upon his broad quarters. The country rang clamorous in the night with the
irritated barking of farm dogs, that followed the rattle of wheels all along
the road. A couple of belated wayfarers had only just time to step into the
ditch. At his own gate, he caught the post and was shot out of the cart headfirst. The horse went on slowly to the door. At Susan's piercing cries the farm
hands rushed out. She thought him dead, but he was only sleeping where he fell and cursed his men, who hastened to him, for disturbing his slumbers.
Autumn
came. The clouded sky descended low upon the black contours of the hills; and
the dead leaves danced in spiral whirls under naked trees, till the wind,
sighing profoundly, laid them to rest in the hollows of bare valleys. And from
morning till night one could see all over the land black denuded boughs, the
boughs gnarled and twisted, as if contorted with pain, swaying sadly between
the wet clouds and the soaked earth. The clear and gentle streams of summer
days rushed discolored and raging at the stones that barred the way to the
sea, with the fury of madness bent upon suicide. From horizon to horizon the
great road to the sands lay between the hills in a dull glitter of empty
curves, resembling an unnavigable river of mud.
Jean-Pierre
went from field to field, moving blurred and tall in the drizzle, or striding
on the crests of rises, lonely and high upon the gray curtain of drifting
clouds, as if he had been pacing along the very edge of the universe. He looked
at the black earth, at the earth mute and promising, at the mysterious earth
doing its work of life in death-like stillness under the veiled sorrow of the
sky. And it seemed to him that to a man worse than childless there was no
promise in the fertility of fields, that from him the earth escaped, defied
him, frowned at him like the clouds, somber and hurried above his head. Having
to face alone his own fields, he felt the inferiority of man who passes away
before the clod that remains. Must he give up the hope of having by his side a
son who would look at the turned-up sods with a master's eye? A man that would
think as he thought, that would feel as he felt; a man who would be part of
himself, and yet remain to trample masterfully on that earth when he was gone?
He thought of some distant relations and felt savage enough to curse them
aloud. They! Never! He turned homewards, going straight at the roof of his
dwelling, visible between the enlaced skeletons of trees. As he swung his legs
over the stile a cawing flock of birds settled slowly on the field; dropped
down behind his back, noiseless and fluttering, like flakes of soot.
That
day Madame Leveille had gone early in the afternoon to the house she had near
Kervanion. She had to pay some of the men who worked in her granite quarry
there, and she went in a good time because her little house contained a shop
where the workmen could spend their wages without the trouble of going to town.
The house stood alone amongst rocks. A lane of mud and stones ended at the door.
The sea-winds coming ashore on Stonecutter's point, fresh from the fierce
turmoil of the waves, howled violently at the unmoved heaps of black boulders
holding up steadily short-armed, high crosses against the tremendous rush of
the invisible. In the sweep of gales the sheltered dwelling stood in a calm
resonant and disquieting, like the calm in the center of a hurricane. On stormy
nights, when the tide was out, the bay of Fougere, fifty feet below the house,
resembled an immense black pit, from which ascended mutterings and sighs as if
the sands down there had been alive and complaining. At high tide the returning
water assaulted the ledges of rock in short rushes, ending in bursts of livid
light and columns of spray, that flew inland, stinging to death the grass of
pastures.
The
darkness came from the hills, flowed over the coast, put out the red fires of
sunset, and went on to seaward pursuing the retiring tide. The wind dropped
with the sun, leaving a maddened sea and a devastated sky. The heavens above
the house seemed to be draped in black rags, held up here and there by pins of
fire. Madame Leveille, for this evening the servant of her own workmen, tried
to induce them to depart. "An old woman like me ought to be in bed at this
late hour," she good-humouredly repeated. The quarrymen drank, asked for
more. They shouted over the table as if they had been talking across a field.
At one end four of them played cards, banging the wood with their hard
knuckles, and swearing at every lead. One sat with a lost gaze, humming a bar
of some song, which he repeated endlessly. Two others, in a corner, were
quarreling confidentially and fiercely over some woman, looking close into one
another's eyes as if they had wanted to tear them out, but speaking in whispers
that promised violence and murder discreetly, in a venomous sibilation of
subdued words. The atmosphere in there was thick enough to slice with a knife.
Three candles burning about the long room glowed red and dull like sparks
expiring in ashes.
The
slight click of the iron latch was at that late hour as unexpected and
startling as a thunder-clap. Madame Leveille put down a bottle she held above a
liqueur glass; the players turned their heads; the whispered quarrel ceased;
only the singer, after darting a glance at the door, went on humming with a
stolid face. Susan appeared in the doorway, stepped in, flung the door to, and
put her back against it, saying, half aloud--
"Mother!"
Madame
Leveille, taking up the bottle again, said calmly: "Here you are, my girl.
What a state you are in!" The neck of the bottle rang on the rim of the
glass, for the old woman was startled, and the idea that the farm had caught
fire had entered her head. She could think of no other cause for her daughter's
appearance.
Susan,
soaked and muddy, stared the whole length of the room towards the men at the
far end. Her mother asked--
"What
has happened? God guard us from misfortune!"
Susan
moved her lips. No sound came. Madame Leveille stepped up to her daughter, took
her by the arm, looked into her face.
"In
God's name," she said, shakily, "what's the matter? You have been
rolling in mud. . . . Why did you come? . . . Where's Jean?"
The
men had all got up and approached slowly, staring with dull surprise. Madame
Leveille jerked her daughter away from the door, swung her round upon a seat
close to the wall. Then she turned fiercely to the men--
"Enough
of this! Out you go--you others! I close."
One
of them observed, looking down at Susan collapsed on the seat: "She
is--one may say--half dead."
Madame
Leveille flung the door open.
"Get
out! March!" she cried, shaking nervously.
They
dropped out into the night, laughing stupidly. Outside, the two Lotharios broke
out into loud shouts. The others tried to soothe them, all talking at once. The
noise went away up the lane with the men, who staggered together in a tight
knot, remonstrating with one another foolishly.
"Speak,
Susan. What is it? Speak!" entreated Madame Leveille, as soon as the door
was shut.
Susan
pronounced some incomprehensible words, glaring at the table. The old woman
clapped her hands above her head, let them drop, and stood looking at her
daughter with disconsolate eyes. Her husband had been "deranged in his
head" for a few years before he died, and now she began to suspect her
daughter was going mad. She asked, pressingly--
"Does
Jean know where you are? Where is Jean?"
"He
knows . . . he is dead."
"What!"
cried the old woman. She came up near, and peering at her daughter, repeated
three times: "What do you say? What do you say? What do you say?"
Susan
sat dry-eyed and stony before Madame Leveille, who contemplated her, feeling a
strange sense of inexplicable horror creep into the silence of the house. She
had hardly realized the news, further than to understand that she had been
brought in one short moment face to face with something unexpected and final.
It did not even occur to her to ask for an explanation. She thought:
accident--terrible accident--blood to the head--fell down a trap door in the
loft. . . . She remained there, distracted and mute, blinking her old eyes.
Suddenly,
Susan said--
"I
have killed him."
For
a moment the mother stood still, almost unbreathing, but with composed face.
The next second she burst out into a shout--
"You
miserable madwoman . . . they will cut your neck. . . ."
She
fancied the gendarmes entering the house, saying to her: "We want your
daughter; give her up:" the gendarmes with the severe, hard faces of men
on duty. She knew the brigadier well--an old friend, familiar and respectful,
saying heartily, "To your good health, Madame!" before lifting to his
lips the small glass of cognac--out of the special bottle she kept for friends.
And now! . . . She was losing her head. She rushed here and there as if
looking for something urgently needed--gave that up, stood stock-still in the
middle of the room, and screamed at her daughter--
"Why?
Say! Say! Why?"
The
other seemed to leap out of her strange apathy.
"Do
you think I am made of stone?" she shouted back, striding towards her
mother.
"No!
It's impossible. . . ." said Madame Leveille, in a convinced tone.
"You
go and see mother," retorted Susan, looking at her with blazing eyes.
"There's no money in heaven--no justice. No! . . . I did not know. . . .
Do you think I have no heart? Do you think I have never heard people jeering at
me, pitying me, wondering at me? Do you know how some of them were calling me?
The mother of idiots--that was my nickname! And my children never would know
me, never speak to me. They would know nothing; neither men--nor God. Haven't I
prayed! But the Mother of God herself would not hear me. A mother! . . . Who is
accursed--I, or the man who is dead? Eh? Tell me. I took care of myself. Do you
think I would defy the anger of God and have my house full of those things--that
are worse than animals who know the hand that feeds them? Who blasphemed in the
night at the very church door? Was it I? . . . I only wept and prayed for mercy
. . . and I feel the curse at every moment of the day--I see it round me from
morning to night . . . I've got to keep them alive--to take care of my
misfortune and shame. And he would come. I begged him and Heaven for mercy. . .
. No! . . . Then we shall see. . . . He came this evening. I thought to myself:
'Ah! again!' . . . I had my long scissors. I heard him shouting . . . I saw him
near. . . . I must--must I? . . . Then take! . . . And I struck him in the
throat above the breastbone. . . . I never heard him even sigh. . . . I left
him standing. . . . It was a minute ago. How did I come here?"
Madame
Leveille shivered. A wave of cold ran down her back, down her fat arms under
her tight sleeves, made her stamp gently where she stood. Quivers ran over the
broad cheeks, across the thin lips, ran amongst the wrinkles at the corners of
her steady old eyes. She stammered--
"You
wicked woman--you disgrace me. But there! You always resembled your father.
What do you think will become of you . . . in the other world? In this . . . Oh, misery!"
She
was very hot now. She felt burning inside. She wrung her perspiring hands--and
suddenly, starting in great haste, began to look for her big shawl and
umbrella, feverishly, never once glancing at her daughter, who stood in the
middle of the room following her with a gaze distracted and cold.
"Nothing
worse than in this," said Susan.
Her
mother, umbrella in hand and trailing the shawl over the floor, groaned
profoundly.
"I
must go to the priest," she burst out passionately. "I do not know
whether you even speak the truth! You are a horrible woman. They will find you
anywhere. You may stay here--or go. There is no room for you in this
world."
Ready
now to depart, she yet wandered aimlessly about the room, putting the bottles
on the shelf, trying to fit with trembling hands the covers on cardboard boxes.
Whenever the real sense of what she had heard emerged for a second from the
haze of her thoughts she would fancy that something had exploded in her brain
without, unfortunately, bursting her head to pieces--which would have been a
relief. She blew the candles out one by one without knowing it, and was
horribly startled by the darkness. She fell on a bench and began to whimper.
After a while she ceased, and sat listening to the breathing of her daughter,
whom she could hardly see, still and upright, giving no other sign of life. She
was becoming old rapidly at last, during those minutes. She spoke in tones
unsteady, cut about by the rattle of teeth, like one shaken by a deadly cold
fit of the ague.
"I
wish you had died little. I will never dare to show my old head in the sunshine
again. There are worse misfortunes than idiot children. I wish you had been
born to me simple--like your own. . . ."
She
saw the figure of her daughter pass before the faint and livid clearness of a
window. Then it appeared in the doorway for a second, and the door swung to
with a clang. Madame Levaille, as if awakened by the noise from a long
nightmare, rushed out.
"Susan!"
she shouted from the doorstep.
She
heard a stone roll a long time down the declivity of the rocky beach above the
sands. She stepped forward cautiously, one hand on the wall of the house, and
peered down into the smooth darkness of the empty bay. Once again she cried--
"Susan!
You will kill yourself there."
The
stone had taken its last leap in the dark, and she heard nothing now. A sudden
thought seemed to strangle her, and she called no more. She turned her back
upon the black silence of the pit and went up the lane towards Ploumar,
stumbling along with sombre determination, as if she had started on a desperate
journey that would last, perhaps, to the end of her life. A sullen and periodic
clamour of waves rolling over reefs followed her far inland between the high
hedges sheltering the gloomy solitude of the fields.
Susan
had run out, swerving sharp to the left at the door, and on the edge of the
slope crouched down behind a boulder. A dislodged stone went on downwards,
rattling as it leaped. When Madame Levaille called out, Susan could have, by
stretching her hand, touched her mother's skirt, had she had the courage to
move a limb. She saw the old woman go away, and she remained still, closing her
eyes and pressing her side to the hard and rugged surface of the rock. After a
while a familiar face with fixed eyes and an open mouth became visible in the
intense obscurity amongst the boulders. She uttered a low cry and stood up. The
face vanished, leaving her to gasp and shiver alone in the wilderness of stone
heaps. But as soon as she had crouched down again to rest, with her head
against the rock, the face returned, came very near, appeared eager to finish
the speech that had been cut short by death, only a moment ago. She scrambled
quickly to her feet and said: "Go away, or I will do it again." The
thing wavered, swung to the right, to the left. She moved this way and that,
stepped back, fancied herself screaming at it, and was appalled by the unbroken
stillness of the night. She tottered on the brink, felt the steep declivity
under her feet, and rushed down blindly to save herself from a headlong fall.
The shingle seemed to wake up; the pebbles began to roll before her, pursued
her from above, raced down with her on both sides, rolling past with an
increasing clatter. In the peace of the night the noise grew, deepening to a
rumour, continuous and violent, as if the whole semicircle of the stony beach
had started to tumble down into the bay. Susan's feet hardly touched the slope
that seemed to run down with her. At the bottom she stumbled, shot forward,
throwing her arms out, and fell heavily. She jumped up at once and turned
swiftly to look back, her clenched hands full of sand she had clutched in her
fall. The face was there, keeping its distance, visible in its own sheen that
made a pale stain in the night. She shouted, "Go away!"--she shouted
at it with pain, with fear, with all the rage of that useless stab that could
not keep him quiet, keep him out of her sight. What did he want now? He was
dead. Dead men have no children. Would he never leave her alone? She shrieked
at it--waved her outstretched hands. She seemed to feel the breath of parted
lips, and, with a long cry of discouragement, fled across the level bottom of
the bay.
She
ran lightly, unaware of any effort of her body. High sharp rocks that, when the
bay is full, show above the glittering plain of blue water like pointed towers
of submerged churches, glided past her, rushing to the land at a tremendous
pace. To the left, in the distance, she could see something shining: a broad
disc of light in which narrow shadows pivoted round the centre like the spokes
of a wheel. She heard a voice calling, "Hey! There!" and answered
with a wild scream. So, he could call yet! He was calling after her to stop.
Never! . . . She tore through the night, past the startled group of
seaweed-gatherers who stood round their lantern paralysed with fear at the
unearthly screech coming from that fleeing shadow. The men leaned on their
pitchforks staring fearfully. A woman fell on her knees, and, crossing herself,
began to pray aloud. A little girl with her ragged skirt full of slimy seaweed
began to sob despairingly, lugging her soaked burden close to the man who
carried the light. Somebody said: "The thing ran out towards the
sea." Another voice exclaimed: "And the sea is coming back! Look at
the spreading puddles. Do you hear--you woman--there! Get up!" Several
voices cried together. "Yes, let us be off! Let the accursed thing go to
the sea!" They moved on, keeping close round the light. Suddenly a man
swore loudly. He would go and see what was the matter. It had been a woman's
voice. He would go. There were shrill protests from women--but his high form
detached itself from the group and went off running. They sent an unanimous
call of scared voices after him. A word, insulting and mocking, came back,
thrown at them through the darkness. A woman moaned. An old man said gravely:
"Such things ought to be left alone." They went on slower, shuffling
in the yielding sand and whispering to one another that Millot feared nothing,
having no religion, but that it would end badly some day.
Susan
met the incoming tide by the Raven islet and stopped, panting, with her feet in
the water. She heard the murmur and felt the cold caress of the sea, and,
calmer now, could see the sombre and confused mass of the Raven on one side and
on the other the long white streak of Molene sands that are left high above the
dry bottom of Fougere Bay at every ebb. She turned round and saw far away,
along the starred background of the sky, the ragged outline of the coast. Above
it, nearly facing her, appeared the tower of Ploumar Church; a slender and tall
pyramid shooting up dark and pointed into the clustered glitter of the stars.
She felt strangely calm. She knew where she was, and began to remember how she
came there--and why. She peered into the smooth obscurity near her. She was
alone. There was nothing there; nothing near her, either living or dead.
The
tide was creeping in quietly, putting out long impatient arms of strange
rivulets that ran towards the land between ridges of sand. Under the night the
pools grew bigger with mysterious rapidity, while the great sea, yet far off,
thundered in a regular rhythm along the indistinct line of the horizon. Susan
splashed her way back for a few yards without being able to get clear of the
water that murmured tenderly all around and, suddenly, with a spiteful gurgle,
nearly took her off her feet. Her heart thumped with fear. This place was too
big and too empty to die in. To-morrow they would do with her what they liked.
But before she died she must tell them--tell the gentlemen in black clothes that
there are things no woman can bear. She must explain how it happened. . . . She
splashed through a pool, getting wet to the waist, too preoccupied to care. . .
. She must explain. "He came in the same way as ever and said, just so:
'Do you think I am going to leave the land to those people from Morbihan that I
do not know? Do you? We shall see! Come along, you creature of mischance!' And
he put his arms out. Then, Messieurs, I said: 'Before God--never!' And he said,
striding at me with open palms: 'There is no God to hold me! Do you understand,
you useless carcase. I will do what I like.' And he took me by the shoulders.
Then I, Messieurs, called to God for help, and next minute, while he was
shaking me, I felt my long scissors in my hand. His shirt was unbuttoned, and,
by the candle- light, I saw the hollow of his throat. I cried: 'Let go!' He was
crushing my shoulders. He was strong, my man was! Then I thought: No! . . .
Must I? . . . Then take!--and I struck in the hollow place. I never saw him
fall. . . . The old father never turned his head. He is deaf and childish,
gentlemen. . . . Nobody saw him fall. I ran out . . . Nobody saw. . . ."
She
had been scrambling amongst the boulders of the Raven and now found herself,
all out of breath, standing amongst the heavy shadows of the rocky islet. The
Raven is connected with the main land by a natural pier of immense and slippery
stones. She intended to return home that way. Was he still standing there? At
home. Home! Four idiots and a corpse. She must go back and explain. Anybody
would understand. . . .
Below
her the night or the sea seemed to pronounce distinctly--
"Aha!
I see you at last!"
She
started, slipped, fell; and without attempting to rise, listened, terrified.
She heard heavy breathing, a clatter of wooden clogs. It stopped.
"Where
the devil did you pass?" said an invisible man, hoarsely.
She
held her breath. She recognized the voice. She had not seen him fall. Was he
pursuing her there dead, or perhaps . . . alive?
She
lost her head. She cried from the crevice where she lay huddled, "Never,
never!"
"Ah!
You are still there. You led me a fine dance. Wait, my beauty, I must see how
you look after all this. You wait. . . ."
Millot
was stumbling, laughing, swearing meaninglessly out of pure satisfaction, pleased
with himself for having run down that fly-by-night. "As if there were such
things as ghosts! Bah! It took an old African soldier to show those
clodhoppers. . . . But it was curious. Who the devil was she?"
Susan
listened, crouching. He was coming for her, this dead man. There was no escape.
What a noise he made amongst the stones. . . . She saw his head rise up, then
the shoulders. He was tall--her own man! His long arms waved about, and it was
his own voice sounding a little strange . . . because of the scissors. She
scrambled out quickly, rushed to the edge of the causeway, and turned round.
The man stood still on a high stone, detaching himself in dead black on the
glitter of the sky.
"Where
are you going to?" he called, roughly.
She
answered, "Home!" and watched him intensely. He made a striding,
clumsy leap on to another boulder, and stopped again, balancing himself, then
said--
"Ha!
ha! Well, I am going with you. It's the least I can do. Ha! ha! ha!"
She
stared at him till her eyes seemed to become glowing coals that burned deep
into her brain, and yet she was in mortal fear of making out the well-known
features. Below her the sea lapped softly against the rock with a splash
continuous and gentle.
The
man said, advancing another step--
"I
am coming for you. What do you think?"
She
trembled. Coming for her! There was no escape, no peace, no hope. She looked
round despairingly. Suddenly the whole shadowy coast, the blurred islets, the
heaven itself, swayed about twice, then came to a rest. She closed her eyes and
shouted--
"Can't
you wait till I am dead!"
She
was shaken by a furious hate for that shade that pursued her in this world,
unappeased even by death in its longing for an heir that would be like other
people's children.
"Hey!
What?" said Millot, keeping his distance prudently. He was saying to
himself: "Look out! Some lunatic. An accident happens soon."
She
went on, wildly--
"I
want to live. To live alone--for a week--for a day. I must explain to them. . .
. I would tear you to pieces, I would kill you twenty times over rather than
let you touch me while I live. How many times must I kill you--you blasphemer!
Satan sends you here. I am damned too!"
"Come,"
said Millot, alarmed and conciliating. "I am perfectly alive! . . . Oh, my
God!"
She
had screamed, "Alive!" and at once vanished before his eyes, as if
the islet itself had swerved aside from under her feet. Millot rushed forward,
and fell flat with his chin over the edge. Far below he saw the water whitened
by her struggles, and heard one shrill cry for help that seemed to dart upwards
along the perpendicular face of the rock, and soar past, straight into the high
and impassive heaven.
Madame
Levaille sat, dry-eyed, on the short grass of the hill side, with her thick
legs stretched out, and her old feet turned up in their black cloth shoes. Her
clogs stood near by, and further off the umbrella lay on the withered sward
like a weapon dropped from the grasp of a vanquished warrior. The Marquis of
Chavanes, on horseback, one gloved hand on thigh, looked down at her as she got
up laboriously, with groans. On the narrow track of the seaweed-carts four men
were carrying inland Susan's body on a hand-barrow, while several others
straggled listlessly behind. Madame Levaille looked after the procession. "Yes,
Monsieur le Marquis," she said dispassionately, in her usual calm tone of
a reasonable old woman. "There are unfortunate people on this earth. I had
only one child. Only one! And they won't bury her in consecrated ground!"
Her
eyes filled suddenly, and a short shower of tears rolled down the broad cheeks.
She pulled the shawl close about her. The Marquis leaned slightly over in his
saddle, and said--
"It
is very sad. You have all my sympathy. I shall speak to the Cure. She was
unquestionably insane, and the fall was accidental. Millot says so distinctly.
Good-day, Madame."
And
he trotted off, thinking to himself: "I must get this old woman appointed
guardian of those idiots, and administrator of the farm. It would be much
better than having here one of those other Bacadous, probably a red republican,
corrupting my commune."
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